Whew.
What a week. It was not an easy one...and I know it wont be the last time I have a "not easy one". Its funny, I was overwhelmed with peace thru the whole kid-in-the-hospital-with-mysterious-infection-thing. I dont know why...wait, I do...
I've been thinking a lot about some great words from a great man. My friend Don Brown said to me once, "faith is remembering". (He also said lots of other things like "dont be a vienna sausage" and "silly rabbit, roads are for vans", too - but I digress)
Faith is remembering.
How true is that for me/you? In the midst of the inevitable shadows of life, do I remember where He's brought me? Do I rest in that? Or do I panic...do I fuss bc my circumstances are not what I have planned out?
We got home from the hospital late friday. And so, yesterday was spent doing 10,000 loads of laundry and learning how to live at home again...getting back to life. As I was doing some cleaning out I came across a letter from a 15 year old kid that I had to stop and read...
"...no one can see the real me because I'm always faking a happy face...I'm hurting so bad I feel empty inside. I feel like I'm not even really alive - living but just here."
My first thought was - "ah man...the pain that poor kid was in". She didnt see the "out" - she only saw how to live in the mess and just survive. I wish I could tell her - "dont be afraid...you'll make it thru this darkness and when you do, you'll remember - you'll never forget - where you came from".
Remembering. Remembering that when you're kid is sick and you cant understand the "why" - you can remember that He'll never leave. Remembering that even in the darkest night that you could imagine - when you're 15 even - that you are never forsaken...no matter how alone you feel. And, if you trust Him...if you let Him get you on the other side of it, you'll remember.
Faith is remembering. I never want to forget. And yea...that 15 year old was me.
When I ran today, a DCB song came on that I hit repeat about 20 times...it was exactly where I am right today. Coincidence? Nah...I know those dont exist.
Shadows
Life is full of light and shadow
O the joy and O the sorrow
O the sorrow
And yet will He bring
Dark to light
And yet will He bring
Day from night
When shadows fall on us
We will not fear
We will remember
When darkness falls on us
We will not fear
We will remember
When all seems lost
When we're thrown and we're tossed
We remember the cost
We rest in Him
Shadow of the cross
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